Surprises' World

I've been wondering, do other people also go through these phases that I go through. I really do not want to term them as 'depressive' phases, but for lack of a better word. Something else that I am wondering, if it is so that majority of people go through these phases, how often do they occur? Because I am seated here feeling like this is now getting boring. I better snap out of it. Just realized that me feeling like this is a projection of societal expectations. "Kwani wewe huwa unago through it kila saa?!" But then I literally cannot just snap out of it. Plus it is not as bad as it sounds. Na sii Kila saa. I am always in awareness when going through these phases. Also, I just realized that they occur when I have been pouring too much into other people's cups, and I am in dire need of solitude.  In all honesty, I do enjoy the solitude. Because it leaves me to my thoughts and the only person I have to worry about in that moment is me. Lakini, watu wanawachwa ...

 I often wonder how it must feel to be bathed in milk and honey be bathed in the flowers of the season fragrant and honeyed I often wonder how it must feel to have the rug pulled out  from right under your feet have to trust that that is what your purpose is Yet these are both yin and yang light and dark ups and downs the duality that is life that comes at us all Tribute to my aunty❤️

  Gooosh, three months down the line! Glad to be writing this while listening to Alusa Why are you Topless? Intro and the first song in na already nafeel I will have trouble picking favourites. It's been a whole three months of so much transformation, hadi siamini. I'm looking at the drafts that I have since the last time I posted and it all makes sense now. The things I wanted to express then, I didn't have the words for them yet. The process was not done processing🤣. Funny how once the lessons are learnt, following the repentance, the point of view makes the most sense. Unless you go through the process, you would not quite acquire the lens to see it that way. They say we all experience different realities. Even while looking at the same thing, we still do not see the same thing. Now I get it! I quit my first ever job in the span of the three months. Felt like I was losing my shit! I have lost relationships so close to my heart, in the span of three months. My world was ...

Leo tunamedi na Tems❤️✨ I will wait for you, for yooou!! I guess that is how it just became. Lakini akajifunza huwezi okoa anybody but yourself. And then it became "if you couldn't be reminded baby girl I'm gonna remind you now" and a whole waste of energy. Habits die hard, or whatever they say.  Crazy tings are âppening!!😂 I think the best part about being in love with a particular song is it being able to translate different circumstances that are yet so similar. Hiyo ilikuwa inaitwa aje kwa literature? Juxtaposition I think. So basically, I might not be weak Basically, I might not be falling Basically, I might be used to this. Yoooh! That is exactly how I am feeling sis. Lived and learning... Affirmation for the month: I'm trouble making trouble Trouble is what excites me No one can do it like me Trouble is making trouble If I was the ganja, you bring the lighter Roll in me rizla, Set me on 🔥! Peace😚✌🏾