SOLITUDE
I've been wondering, do other people also go through these phases that I go through. I really do not want to term them as 'depressive' phases, but for lack of a better word. Something else that I am wondering, if it is so that majority of people go through these phases, how often do they occur? Because I am seated here feeling like this is now getting boring. I better snap out of it. Just realized that me feeling like this is a projection of societal expectations. "Kwani wewe huwa unago through it kila saa?!" But then I literally cannot just snap out of it. Plus it is not as bad as it sounds. Na sii Kila saa. I am always in awareness when going through these phases. Also, I just realized that they occur when I have been pouring too much into other people's cups, and I am in dire need of solitude. In all honesty, I do enjoy the solitude. Because it leaves me to my thoughts and the only person I have to worry about in that moment is me. Lakini, watu wanawachwa ...