When the Bough Breaks

It's been a while since I put my thoughts into words. So let's journal😂.

The wheels in my head have been at a constant acceleration mode. It is official, I tend to over think a lot. You would think that I would be at a full understanding of this part of my mind by now lakini heh! 

I have been very careful with my choice of words for this post. Because I am intentionally working towards separating the 'I' from 'self'. Illustration, when you observe something or someone that makes you feel angry or happy or sad, you are not angry or happy or sad, you feel that way but you are not that way.

Which brings me to the whole point of when the bough breaks... (complete the proverb, 3 mrks)

For the longest I have prided myself as a perfectionist. It has always been the one thing that I have to mention as a strength, as well as a weakness. However, I still did not have the realization I have now. 

Hear me out; what are the odds that I need to think and act a certain way that fits the needs of a system without accounting for its people's needs. How is it that what is 'best' for me has to be drilled into me through generations. Don't the laws of physics call for attraction? 

Perfect child, perfect student, perfect professional in whichever field you 'choose' to break your back for. The perfect worker bee who will do anything they can to ensure the work of their hands is 'perfect'. 

Is it really perfect if it feels like you are stuck in a rabbit hole and you just keep digging deeper and deeper?

Don't get me wrong, I am a perfectionist. No way I am giving it up. The part of considering it a weakness, that I let go off. But I want to be a perfectionist in the things that bring me the most joy. I am willing to lay my golden hands on anything that leads me to living in my truest form.

"My people perish for their lack of knowledge."

As the brilliant being you are, do better. Do not just go with the flow of affirmations you have been given by a people who only want to benefit from your 'perfectionism' and demonize the same 'perfectionism' when it does not suit them. 

Get to understand yourself for you and only you! Spirit is perfect, but never at the expense of its truth.

Peace♥







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  1. Marlene🌸April 11, 2023 at 4:04 PM

    "I am willing to lay my golden hands on anything that leads me to living in my truest form." Damn!!!!!

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