HOLD YOUR HEAD HIGH💪🏾.

So today after class I was taking pictures with my friends and the moment I looked at my photos my mood went from 100 to 0 quite fast. I have been so self conscious about my smile for more than two years now.

Before I went to bed that night I felt as though my face was swollen. I kept asking watu kwa nyumba kama uso yangu imefura but it wasn't. So the next morning I wake up as usual and I go ahead to prepare for school. While brushing my teeth I notice that a section of my face feels heavy...nikijaribu kugaggle maji I notice I cant hold any water in my mouth, inamwagika tu. At this point I am extremely scared. "Kwani nakufa😂," as the drama queen that I am.

I try to shake it off and just get to school. The moment nataka kucross barabara something gets into my left eye and I can't blink. I was terrified to the extent that I froze in the middle of the road. It was at this moment that I knew I couldn't ignore whatever was going on. I decide to ditch school and go back home. My left arm feels like its pulling down my body weight...ni kama nimebeba mtungi ya maji with my left hand.

Bell's palsy is a condition that causes temporary weakness or paralysis to the muscles of the face. Due to the weakness your affected area droops. That explains why I wasn't able to hold water in my mouth or the fact that I felt my face was swollen. Causes of bell's palsy include respiratory diseases such as asthma and allergies, reactions to viral infections etc Ukienda hosi utapewa anti-viral pills if I may say, and be encouraged to go for physiotherapy. It is expected that bell's palsy resolves within days to weeks, rarely for years. Acupuncture can also work as a measure to manage it.

I really don't want to be so technical with this, and get all those big scary medical terminologies. It is just my story to help  drive the point home. There is a very big improvement in my facial muscles compared to the time it started but of course I know it happened so I am always conscious about everything. I rarely smile in photos because I feel a have a crooked smile;but until I actually raise it, people rarely notice it. 

Confidence can never come from outside; only within. If you feel it you believe it! We all have scars, whether physical, emotional or psychological. Most times we are just too scared to embrace them, too scared about resentment that does not even really exist. You have lived within yourself, nobody has or will ever be you. So how is it that we would confine ourselves to the the probability of people noticing and judging our scars and imperfections! Always own how you feel and hold your head high for you are the only you with perfect imperfections. That, should in no way dampen your high spirits. Always strive to work on yourself.

👑♥️.